Trusting in Him...

I don’t have a problem with change.

Sometimes change is a good thing. You can throw out some of the old garbage and let in some new things to make things better. Sometimes the same old scenery just isn’t good enough and you need a change of pace or a new something. That’s also cool.

What sucks is the times when you’re ready for something new to happen when it hasn’t quite done that yet. When everything is in the air and you’re playing life by ear.

Summer used to be a time to relax, hang out with friends, sleep in, and do the things you didn’t have time to do during school. But it’s kinda scary to find out that as you go on life summer just complicates things. It takes the pace and setting you had and kinda throws it all away.

I don’t like not knowing for sure what’s going to happen in the future. I don’t like not knowing where i’m going to be in two weeks. Truthfully, I’m ready to settle.

I want life to settle into a constant pace and have at it. Where I can find my rhythm and roll with it. It’s scary thing through the things I am right now. Saying “God, you’re in control of my life, so steer me where you want me.” Because I don’t like that kind of uncertainty. But the beauty of absolute trust, is that while sometimes I may doubt, and sometimes I may have a bad day, in the end my faith in my God to point me in the direction he wants is going to pay off better anyway.

I’m moving my things into my apartment tomorrow and then I’m going home for a couple of weeks, or more depending on who wants to pay me money in exchange for my time and services (AKA jobs). So we’ll see how it goes.

As always, God Bless. And to Him be the glory, forever and ever. Amen.

someday I want to wake up, have a day of nothing but lovey dovey cuteness with my wife, and then fall asleep with her in my arms.

That would be perfect.

God you gave me Calculus and Physics, can I have this too?

I know just who I want it to be with…

So, there’s been this whole thing going on for awhile where the government has been all over itself trying to figure out how to define marriage… The arguments both for and against started out fairly philosophical and slowly became more angry threats and hate speech back and forth. Because it is pointless to babble on back and forth a midst thousands of other people who just want to blow their opinions all over everyone else, and partly because I don’t particularly care who reads my opinion I’ve decided to make mine more private. If you have something to say that is educated, constructive, and not hateful, then please feel free to post a comment or question. If you can’t say something without being an ass, no matter where your opinions point you, then keep your trap shut and go away.

Personally, I feel that marriage is the domain of the church. It is a sacred bond placed between two individuals based on their beliefs and it should be only limited by themselves, their religious institution, and their God, god, or gods. The Government has no say in this. When I get married, I don’t particularly want to hear “by the power invested in me by God, and the state of” wherever. That state part can be left out. The governments part can and should be done separately.

On that note, if the government decides that two people should or should not have certain rights then that is that. Now, because we live in a country where we have the ability to step up and say that we don’t agree and attempt change, if you feel that you have been wronged, then it is your right and duty to take action and attempt change. You have the ability to vote and make your opinion heard as a tax paying citizen of this country. But in the end, if change cannot be enacted, if you don’t get your way, you have two options. Get over it or get out.

While I’m ranting let me say something else. If I say that it is my belief that if you do not change your ways and believe what I believe, or live in the way I think is the only way to get to heaven, that is not hate speech. It does not change my opinion of you nor does it effect your everyday life. I do not let my opinions on who is, or is not currently living a lifestyle that is pleasing to God effect my interactions with others, nor should others. Anyone who goes around screaming “God hates fags” is defying the same God that they are advocating.

God hates one thing, Sin. Sin takes many forms: fornication, sexual immorality (which does include homosexuality, as well as other things), murder, theft, bigotry, gluttony, lust, genocide, and a lot of other things. But he also loves us with a passion and purity that any of us cannot come close to replicating. He loved us enough to come to earth as a lowly human, live a life without sin, and then die for all sin ever. This means that if you accept his gift of salvation, deny your past life of sin, and turn away from it, then you will one day live in eternity with Him. It is not our place to decide who has made what decisions. That is solely between them and God.

To that end, going around yelling “God hates fags” does not invite others to turn away from their life of sin and towards the love of God. No one can argue that. So I rebuke any who use this argument and want to say that you are running the name of God through the muck when you do. Do not get me wrong. Sin in all its forms is horrible and disgusting in the eyes of the Lord. But we are called to spread the gospel of faith, hope, and love.

So take this away: Marriage is for churches, Governments only enforce restrictions, both immoral hatred and homosexuality are equally wrong in the eyes of the Lord, and God wants desperately to lavish His love and affection over you, all you need to do is accept it.

No matter how far away from God you stray he is only a step away.

Fuck Physics.

Fuck Statistics.

Fuck Computer Architecture.

(Source: staypozitive)

I hate when its the little things that break the dam. For instance, I went to get pizza and the place was closed. I drove back to the student parking lot, walked back forever back to my dorm, all to discover that I was still really hungry. Oh, btw it was raining…

I don’t wanna live on campus anymore, I’m tired of never having any food, or money. I’m tired of classes that are boring and stupid. I’m tired of monotonous rules serve no purpose. I’m tired of pretty much everything in Lynchburg at this point. No one ever has any time to hang out or have fun. I’m tired of late nights, sleeping through the day and never getting anything done. I’m tired of living in a fucking 10’x10’ room that’s always too hot. I’m tired of not feeling like i’m making any progress at anything, and of wondering how life will pan out. I’m tired of missing my family, my girl, and my puppies.

I want more out of life, and what pisses me off is that I know that I need school to get it anywhere, and I’m tired of slow progress. I hate being mad, I hate being hungry. I’ve got no outlets, not hobbies, no time-consuming soul-filling interests, i’ve got diddly….

I’m tired of not being able to fucking swear about the shit that annoys me.

Jesus, do me a huge favor and take my burden away from me. Give me peace of mind for the future, give me provision for the present, and let me learn from the past without feeling the regret of failure. Above all grant me the strength to endure the path you have in mind that I endeavor to walk. Let the things I say and do reflect Your glory in spite of my failures. By Your Name, which is above all other names I ask. I love you God, Amen.

If I could fly,
above the sky,
so far above the noise

I’d go so high,
above the sky,
that I could hear You Voice

And so on high,
above the sky,
I’ll join in with the chorus

Because on high,
above the sky,
We’ll praise You forevermore

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